Love, I knew you had a dangerous life before I ever spent a night in your bed. I thought a lot about what ifs, before we talked. What it'd take. I can do the arithmancy. Number of people who've died, getting things where they are now. Number of people who've died in the last couple of years, even. Chloe But nothing's certain, right?
I want so much with you. I want children (I'd not mind a daughter, you know, not just a son.) I want you to die decades and decades from now, surrounded by people who love you and think well of you. I want there to be hordes of students who are better because of you - of us. Dozens of other things.
If - if something happened to you, I'd miss you to the end of the universe, most likely. Every day. Most hours. (Had a taste of that, last spring, enough to know.)
Love, my family, whatever else we are, we're good at raising kids. The kind of kids you and I want. I'd have - support. Help. There's practical things, and we can talk about that. But I'd be better off than so many, and I know it.
Unpleasant things - I'd rather know. Blind can't make sense of the stars.
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Date: 2014-05-02 11:37 pm (UTC)Love, I knew you had a dangerous life before I ever spent a night in your bed. I thought a lot about what ifs, before we talked. What it'd take. I can do the arithmancy. Number of people who've died, getting things where they are now. Number of people who've died in the last couple of years, even.
ChloeBut nothing's certain, right?I want so much with you. I want children (I'd not mind a daughter, you know, not just a son.) I want you to die decades and decades from now, surrounded by people who love you and think well of you. I want there to be hordes of students who are better because of you - of us. Dozens of other things.
If - if something happened to you, I'd miss you to the end of the universe, most likely. Every day. Most hours. (Had a taste of that, last spring, enough to know.)
Love, my family, whatever else we are, we're good at raising kids. The kind of kids you and I want. I'd have - support. Help. There's practical things, and we can talk about that. But I'd be better off than so many, and I know it.
Unpleasant things - I'd rather know. Blind can't make sense of the stars.